surat tok

kty,

ingat sik ktk time kt 1st jmpa lok.. waktu ya di tigkatan 6 rendah..klas L6A1.. ktk bukan la org 1st yg tego kmk tp ktk org 1st yg cam kmk.. 

ktk mdah.. "kmk rasa kmk kenal ktk bah.. ktk sekolah rendah dolok cney?"..

kmk nyaut.. "st. may.. darjah 1-3.. 1H"

ktk jwb.. "patut lah kmk cam kenal ktk.. muka ktk kedak familiyer bah.. kmk dolok 1B sampe darjah 3.. ktk ingat kmk sik?"

den, kt terus smbg klaka kenal sapa2 gik and trs bla..bla..blaa... lam ati mek time ya n d same ayat kmk pdh ktk setahun lepas ya.."Ct khadijah mariam.. sapa x kenal time ya.. d faveret pupil".. tp kmk nang sik sangkak kmk bleh rapat benar ngan ktk smpe knek tok.. wlupun ktk jauh d skudai.. dari lower 6 kt trs ke upper 6.. mcm2 memori.. tp kmk xpenah pdh ktk tok.. "tq so much 4 ascep me as 1 of yr friend.. time ya la baruk kmk benar2 merasa kmk da kwn".. 

kwn da byk but just 1@2 yg kt kwn betul2 rapat nak..

mcm2 kt angan2.. angan2 smbg blaja sama la...smpe la abs stpm den ambk medsi... tp angan2 nak smbg blaja sama2 ya nang x sampe.. plan asal adlh sama but den tiba2 ktk tuka bcoz of sum1.. u noe... truely, 1st kmk dgr ktk nak tukar plan bcoz of *dat kmk nang blur... i told ma self, "ok, may be there is a reason why Allah make it like dat.. as dat person is d reason why u made d decision"... well, dis is what i always told ma self if kmk dah smpe tahap ya.. nak kata marah sik juak, nak kata pasrah x jak, nak kata sedih pun x juak.. just x tauk ayat ni yg ssui nak madah psl apa yg kmk rasa... n now, same thing different situation...

3 and a haf year kmk d ctok.. bukan sekali tp byk kali kmk rasa kedak ya.. and bcoz blaja psl human psikology nak, jadi kmk just faham why human jadi cam unstable n pdh ngan dirik.. jgn kedak ya, jgn kedak tok.. ko ada problem rah ctok jadi harus polah cam tok.. u noe what should u do la... u harus terimak kenyataan la... but den, there is sumting in ma heart dat i dont noe what i feel.. lastly, its so frustrated..

dat's why, im really sorry..

sorry coz bout 1 year kmk cam jauh2 dr ktk.. but den, ktk still contect kmk.. kmk rasa mun nak arap kmk, nang sampe kinok tok kali kt duak x becontect agik.. rasa la wlupun hakikatnya nang sik.. n acually, masok semester ke tiga n empat d ctok baruk kmk benar2 ikhlas n accept who we call  friends in ma heart just like b4..

when i was small.. kmk always think of sumting n feel in ma heart but cant express it with word..

n last night terbaca a touching story  bout a young boy who want to buy a doll and a white ross 4 his sista n mummy... dan kmk tersentap dengan sebaris ayat yg ada 10 pekataan... it says ".....but i didn't dare to ask Allah for too much"...